the 11th Doctor (deleted dialogue from his last moments in TTOTD) - DWM Special Edition : The Year of the Doctor (via river-song-has-left-the-library)
no, but what absolutely kills me about this is the end. 'And I didn’t fly away. When it mattered, I stayed, I didn’t run.' I'd like to think he isn't just talking about Trenzalore. No, this is a reference to 11’s whole tenure. Think about it, as the son-in-law of the boy and girl who waited, he learned a thing or two didn’t he?
He may have left a little girl waiting in a garden, but he came back. And he took her with him in his lonely blue box to see the universe just like he’d promised. Then the time came for the little girl (who was no longer a little girl) to grow up and get married…but she couldn’t give up the life in the box, not yet, so in came the boy who waited to join the crew (more permanently this time).
And while the Doctor watched that little girl who waited (now all grown up) and her husband, the boy who waited 2,000 years to keep her safe fall deeper and deeper in love and devotion to each other…he learned quite a lot.
He learned that love was for “always,” at a time when he was still running terrified from the woman who died saving him, the woman with the curly hair and the spoilers…the woman who left him a stuttering mess with a single kiss. The very woman, who as it turned out, was the daughter of his best friends, the girl and boy who waited, the best of humanity. And yet, she was part Time Lord like him, trained to hate but made to love him. Unconditionally. Faithfully. Devotedly. Just like her parents before her.
With this miracle found amid such loss and despair, the old Time Lord did something terrifying, he stayed. He didn’t run anymore. Not from death. Not from his best friends. Not from the woman he loved.
In fact, he married her. Not in an accidental or meaningless ceremony but one that counted, even with time disintegrating around them, the Doctor showed River Song that he wasn’t the only one “loved by so many and so much.”
So the Doctor gained a most unexpected gift. And even as his in-laws, his best friends grew even older…he couldn’t just leave them like he’d left everyone else, they were different, they were his family. And he couldn’t just leave his wife like he’d left Elizabeth or Marilyn because he’d meant it. “Always and Completely”. “Totally Married Her.”
But unlike fairytales, this story doesn’t have a happy ending.
The Doctor lost his friends…as he always does, and sooner or later, he took his wife to see the Singing Towers. She looked positively resplendent, more beautiful than he’d ever seen her, and he cried, unable to save the woman he’d been devoted to for so long from her inevitable death.
Even centuries later, when the old Time Lord, the once Raggedy Man remembered how to love again, staying true to his new friend, the Impossible Girl, he never forgot the family that had made him stay.
Amelia Pond, ‘the first face this face saw.’ Rory Williams, ‘the boy who waited.’ River Song, the woman who was ‘always’ there to him. And it was through their memory that he stayed again, living out his remaining life on a war-torn planet for 1,000 years. Saving countless lives, but at the same time, watching generations upon generations flare and fade forever.
But in the end, with his last few breaths, he could remember the people he loved, the first face he ever saw…and be proud of the fact that for once in his life he didn’t run away. That he truly was the Doctor who stayed.(via cmartlover)